#SavingHannelie – JOINING HEARTS, HANDS & FUNDS TO HELP THIS LEGENDARY LADY HANNELIE BEAT CANCER – 

#SavingHannelie

JOINING HEARTS, HANDS & FUNDS TO HELP THIS LEGENDARY LADY HANNELIE BEAT CANCER

– being jojo I only write this I do not have this type of strength and courage.

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If you know me you will know that I have an angel and hero sister Debs Bayvel , who beat Cancer time and again over 39 years, with Faith and as is required with this dreaded disease, plenty of expensive yet vital medical treatment. I thank God and my amazing dad that we were always able to afford any and all treatments Debs needed.

Hannelie Swart (a close friend of Yolandi Engelbrecht who in turn is one of Debs best friends and a consistent, loving rock in Debs life) is losing her battle to Cancer because she CANNOT afford the treatment that CAN save her….

Tears of despair roll down my cheeks as this lady who has such strength, faith and dignity may die due to a lack of money and a medical aid which is denying her life – money I know even bit by bit we can raise. However as is the case with Cancer, a ticking time bomb, her disease is spreading so quickly and these rapidly multiplying cells are attacking and invading every inch of her now tiny and frail body.

Can you help me spread this story faster than those cells can multiply … I know you can.

TIME is of the ESSENCE and so I am writing this and appealing to the hearts of each and every person myself, my family, my friends and strangers know. I can only hope I have surrounded myself with the kind of people who will donate whatever amount they can afford, to save the life of someone so utterly kind and special.

Hannelie Swarts story – her strength and words are her very own I have only penned her story.


In 2014 at 53 years of age Hannelie received those dire words, heard too often these days, while sitting all alone in her doctors consulting room, “You have Melanoma cancer and the diagnosis is terminal”. Shocked, terrified and reeling at this death sentence imposed so unexpectedly, just wanting to escape, Hannelie sat in her car and called her best friend … both sobbed uncontrollably.

A life cut short so quickly… What goes through your mind?

As you sit frozen, this disease does not stop and allow you your sorrows, it continues to kill you as quickly as it can, wrenching the life out of you with no compassion or conviction.

What Hannalie has been diagnosed with is an exceedingly rare and incredibly aggressive form of Cancer known as ‘Malignant Melanoma Cancer” – but what is in a title if it is merely words that explain a deadly cancer with a high recurrence rate and until very recently no successful treatments made available. In Hannalie’s case we cannot say she could have and should have avoided the sun as her melanoma is not on her exposed body. Her cancer presented itself as vaginal primary malignant melanoma accounting for 0.3 – 0.8% of all malignant melanomas.
Sadly making her prognosis even worse….
Yet today and as you will read later on, Hannelie says she reads the below quote and is motivated….how many of us in a desperate state and facing death could find one ounce of motivation for anything and yet, she does…

“Cancer is not a death sentence, but rather a life sentence. It pushes one to live” – Marcia Smith.

Friends are your hearts not aching a little already to help this lady?

Deciding to fight this disease WHICH CAN BE BEATEN, as the strong yet gentle lady she is, Hannalie went to a gynaecologist oncologist Professor Snyman, who explained that she would on the 8th September 2014, have an operation which would involve a radical hysterectomy, vaginectomy and pelvic lymphadenectomy. Unknown terms racing through her mind, alone and losing the parts of her which made her feel like the lady she is, Hannelie was absolutely terrified but with no option she had the operation.

Although she experienced immense pain after this operation Hannelie recovered and was back at work within 8 weeks. In her words “I was blessed to have wonderful friends and family to support me all the way through the operation and afterwards. I knew that my life was in God’s hand and I was never alone.”

Again tears stream and my heart is broken. How does someone remain so positive and appreciative when going through the deepest and darkest valleys?

And in 2014 life continued for Hannelie with no chemotherapy or radiation required (Thank you Lord as this was a miracle) well I guess I have to say as I have witnessed it for 30 years, life continued as a “Cancer Survivor” with regular scans and check-ups.

And then….

After a year of “normal scan results” at the end of 2015 Hannelie had to undergo surgery for an incisional hernia caused from her previous abdominal operation. I can never fathom why after beating this disease the victor will still need to battle through operations and problems which arise from the battle…. SADLY during this operation the surgeon discovered new and more Melanoma Tumours.

Knowing how we have always felt with Debs and watching her hear these words countless times “ a recurrence, metastasised, stage 2, terminal” I can only imagine that Hannelie felt the same – those words you never thought you would hear again will shatter and destroy… freeze you, shock you, numb you and finally bring you to your knees sobbing and desperate. With one place to look and that is upwards to Heaven and then as I have witnessed so very often, somewhere from deep inside these incredible survivors will find the strength to fight again.

And so entering the ring again, Hannelie went back to her gynaecologist and was given the heart wrenching news that she would need to decide on having another major operation involving a pelvic exenteration (a radical surgery that removes all pelvic organs – urinary bladder, urethra, rectum and anus). Realising on that day that her life was about to change forever Hannalie researched and prayed. She even contacted CANSA knowing that if or at this stage when, the time came she would need them to face death with dignity. They were amazing and even introduced Hannelie to a lady who had had the very same operation… later Hannelie in her amazing way would help them by raising funds for CANSA …

And now we need to raise funds for Hannelie..

Deciding that no matter what they took from her she wanted to live in order to spend more time with her precious friends and family, Hannelie – with an enormous amount of faith – underwent a seven hour operation on the 12th May 2016 even knowing that she would now have a permanent colostomy and urostomy – in non-medical terms these are known as “Stomas” which are surgically created openings on the abdomen to collect the waste products (urine and faeces) which our bodies would usually get rid of naturally.

Again tears stream how much can one body take, how much of you can YOU lose and still LIVE afterwards…?

In hospital still weak and tired Hannelie named this her ‘Mount Everest’ challenge. In her own words everyday felt like she had achieved something major even if it was just her saltwater bath routine. “I asked God to give me enough energy just for the day. He says in his word, “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matt 6:34). His grace is new every day. Although it was difficult to cope, God sent the right people my way. Help and support were always close. “

The beautiful strength of our Hannelie our angel continued to shine through. Can we continue to show Hannelie this type of love and support?

After fifteen days Hannalie was discharged from hospital and desperate to get home just to be with her precious dog, a love we can all understand as even though she was now perhaps disfigured and ‘damaged’ her pal would give her the unconditional love she so deserved.

Hannelie did discover that her Mount Everest climb was just beginning as every day after she left the hospital, would bring with it new challenges. She had to get used to the stoma pouches, she was unable to eat solid foods, and she couldn’t sleep and found it incredibly difficult to walk. Her left leg was very swollen to the extent that she was unable to even lift it – that alone took six months to return to normal.

Experiencing good and bad days, Hannelie had to learn to change the stoma pouches every day where some days even if urine would leak from the bag it would leave her helpless and in tears. Hannalie had amazing help from her stoma therapist and says if it wasn’t for these angels in her life she wouldn’t have made it.

I think she is the angel….

As Hannelie says though… as a lady as a woman as a human being…

“My body will never look or feel the same. After my operation I used to cry when I looked at my body. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror. I have cried when I have to clean the stomas and replace the pouches. It gets better with time but it is still difficult some days.”

And we think a Telkom line going down is a MAJOR Difficulty…..

As a result of the operation Hannelie was booked off from work for 3 months and then discovered she was afraid to go back to work and couldn’t quite get her head around the difficulties it would bring. As a personal assistant she would need to attend meetings and take minutes and was so scared that she wold not be able to perform all her duties as she did before. She now had a colostomy which means no sphincter muscle around the stoma, so she has no control over her bowel or flatulence. The embarrassment of sitting in a room full of people who would hear these intimate noises terrified her.

And yet

Being the strong and dedicated lady she is, she proudly survived the 1st day, then the 1st month and life at work got better with time until it was too sore to sit for long periods of time and she had to start working half days.

And then, again Tragedy struck… In the form of stage 4 cancer

In August of 2016 inoperable multiple lung metastases and nodules were found in the right upper lobe anterior, right mid lobe and posterior right upper lobe of her lungs. Although still small (measuring only 3 x 3 mm and 5 x 5 mm). Hannelie was devastated, and her cancer now classified in the end stages of this dreadful disease as Stage 4.

Chemotherapy was decided on as everyone rallied around and wanted this kind and amazing lady to survive. The chemo (Dacarbazine) cost R10,000-00 per treatment, her medical aid sent their approval and the course started over September and October 2016.

Dacarbazine is the standard 1st line treatment for patients with malignant metastatic melanoma.
For decades, chemotherapy with Dacarbazine has served as the standard in patients with inoperable metastatic melanoma, despite the fact that the survival rate as a result of treatment from this drug has never been shown to work in clinical trials. Pure poison running through your system, damaging everything in its path, both the healthy and unhealthy parts, for nothing….

Although she knew this treatment may not save her life as its response rate is so limited, Hannelie had to try it before her medical aid would approve immunotherapywhich has a far better response rate but is very expensive.

And then…

In October of 2016 Hannelie went for a CT scan post these chemotherapy sessions only to hear more disappointing news. Some of the lung metastases had increased in size and multiple new tumours were now visible. The cancer had also spread to her liver. The chemotherapy had not worked at all…

Hannelies’s oncologist suggested starting with immunotherapy immediately but application for this therapy takes time as it has to be referred to the SA Oncology Consortium and with Cancer time is never on one’s side and so Hannelies friends and family started praying that her treatment would be approved rapidly. And of course this treatment is also very expensive.

Yet what is the value one can place on a life?

Thankfully in November, Bankmed approved 4 sessions of immunotherapy ( for more on this treatment please see link). The cost is exorbitant at R288,359-36 per treatment. And as Hannelie says, she was incredibly blessed with no side effects (just ) a skin rash, headaches and fatigue. Her hair didn’t fall out and she didn’t experience any nausea.

Grateful for these things what a true heroine? Not many of us could even copy daily with these side effects….

Hannelie’s last treatment, with the four spaced out every twenty one days, was completed in February 2017.

Still terrified and wracked with a feeling of helplessness and excepting bad news, Hannelie went for a CT scan on the 25th February 2017.

However God being the amazing Father He is shone his light on Hannelie and the scan showed a significant reduction in the size and number of her lung tumours. The liver nodules were still present but considerably smaller. Two of the three previously noted had slightly decreased in size. And finally the best news, no new metastatic lesions were seen. Having seen these amazing results, a miracle on a black and white film, her oncologist immediately suggested an application be requested from Bankmed for four more sessions.

The sky had cleared, a rainbow appeared and hope was again discovered.

You see, Immunotherapy will give you a 65.4% chance of survival however the cost is just to “high” for these medical aids which are more intent on making money than saving lives… they requested a liver test and on receiving the results took this ladies life, looked at the costs on paper and decided she was not going to go for more therapy….

You see money is far more important than life, I guess? What a sad day and age we live in when a boardroom of professionals can have no empathy.

Desperate Hannelie and her oncologist applied for just two sessions and again after another scan and despite such positive results, the desperate please for life was declined by strangers who I guess sleep at night knowing their bank accounts are full but to me, they must have pretty empty hearts…

So today we are here,

Hannelie was disappointed with the decision as not getting any more treatment meant as she sits today she IS DYING and she cannot do a thing about it, this precious, special and brave lady.

I am stepping in as even though Hannelie says “I have to trust on the Lord and believe that everything will work out for the good. “ I would hope that’s someone would do the same for me and for those I know and love….

Please I make a plea to your hearts help… if you are ever in this situation I will do my utmost to make sure you get the care you deserve.

Let us set a goal to raise the money for two more treatments…

It is a lot at R 576 720 but at a hundred rand ( what you spend on a coffee, cocktails or posting selfies on IG) from five thousand people, the number of “friends” so many of us have on Facebook alone, means WE CAN DO IT especially if we spread this story everywhere and in every way we can…

Please let your heart reach out to this lady lets show Bankmed we can do it and perhaps they will then pay for the rest.

Please make donations securely here https://gogetfunding.com/joining-hearts-hands-funds-to-help-this-legendary-lady-hannelie-beat-cancer/

Facebook Support Group www.facebook.com/groups/1289152387829846/

These last few lines below are from our Hannelie… feel her heart as she reaches out to yours…

What I have learned from cancer:

· That I am “more than a conqueror” in this world through Him who loves me– Romans 8:37. To be “more than a conqueror” means I will not only achieve victory, but I am overwhelmingly victorious.

· That I can face the trials of life with the certainty that I am never alone. I have a mighty Father who fights for me.

· I can approach the darkest valleys with confidence, knowing that nothing can happen to me that is not permitted by our loving Father for my good (Romans 8:28)

· That I was braver than I believed, stronger than I seemed and smarter than I thought.

· Life is short. Live it. I have contacted Cansa and have volunteered to help with projects.

· Do whatever you can while you still can. I have started with Calligraphy classes in January and I will finish the course end of 2018. I am enjoying it to still learn new things.

· Every night I turn my worries over to God. He is going to be up all night anyway – Mary C Crowley.
Hannelie Swart

Cancer survivor

I know that God is in control and although this was a disappointment, my life is in God’s hands.

Shared Article Breaking The Taboo : The Strongest Girls Are The Girls With Anxiety

Sometimes I Share An Article That Resonates With Me And It’s As If Each Word Was Etched By My Own Hand and Heart. Thank you Holly Riordan for just ‘getting’ us girls…

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She’s strong, because she’s in a constant battle with her anxiety. It’s telling her that she’s weak. That she shouldn’t speak up. That she shouldn’t get out of bed.

Some days, she listens to everything that voice tells her. But other days, she finds the power to ignore it. She finds the strength to leave her room. To socialize. To smile.

She’s strong, because she shows up, even when she’s shaking. She speaks, even when it’s with a cracked voice. She keeps breathing, even when those breaths are shaky.

It would be easy for her to cancel plans with her friends, turn down dates, skip class, call in sick from work — and sometimes, she does. Sometimes, the idea of being around people is too much for her to handle.

But most of the time, she does what she has to do. She switches off her alarm. She showers. She dresses. And then she gets shit done.

Of course, she gets distracted throughout the day. The tiniest thing can send her mind spinning. A text from someone she didn’t expect to hear from. An email she isn’t quite sure how to answer. A strange look from one of her coworkers or crushes.

She suffers from constant self-consciousness, but she pushes past it. She ignores the way she thinks everyone is looking at her, judging her, and she forces herself to be productive. She forces herself to focus on what’s important.

She refuses to let anxiety control her life. She won’t let her dark thoughts eclipse the positive ones. She’s motivated to be the best person she can be.

At times, her anxiety makes her feel weak. Lesser. Like she doesn’t deserve to be in the same room as people that can talk to strangers as if they’ve known each other for years.

But even though she feels inferior, that’s far from the truth. She’s a warrior. A badass. Why can’t she see that?

She tries so hard. She puts in so much effort. And she’s gotten so far.

Some people rarely venture outside of their comfort zone — but she’s outside of her comfort zone every damn day. She’s either worried about what to say or what to wear or where to park. She’s never relaxed. She’s always on edge.

That’s why she’s always learning. Always growing. Every second of every day.

Sure, there are times when she suffers from setbacks. When she doesn’t say a single word for hours. When she stays in her pajamas and puts off showering.

But there are other times when she finds the courage to speak her mind. When she surprises herself with how brave she can be.

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She probably doesn’t realize it yet, but girls with anxiety are the strongest girls in the world, because they never have a minute of peace. Because they’re always struggling — and they’re always winning

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A little bit of Heaven and  Jesus above also gets me through a lot….

7th April 2017 For Mandela – The Simple Views Of A Girl Not Politically Minded At All

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I am not politically minded at all but this week has both terrified me and broken my heart … looking at what Nelson Mandela said and did I had to share my thoughts.

“When a man has done what he considers to be his duty to his people and his country, he can rest in peace.” Madiba ….

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Tomorrow so much rests on the success or failure of our country, our #SouthAfrica.
Let us stand together as we are, brothers and sisters of all races, genders, cultures and creed.
We need to stand together as ONE COUNTRY a RAINBOW NATION & a DEMOCRACY in order to save this land.

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How can we let not just one man, our Madiba but many other of his compatriots, lose an entire life’s worth of struggle and strife because of the selfishness of those now in control who are destroying the country for their own ill begotten gain, when these heroes saved this country so selflessly…

Let us show an nth of the bravery they did and stand up to save our land. So these heroes can truly RIP and for our future generations.

March To Save South Africa

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Still So Apt Yet I Am Finally Ready: My Darling … Yet To Discover

Approaching 35 seems like a good time to repost these words I wrote in the middle of a game farm under a star filled African sky. I was full of hope and yet I guess whilst the words were straight from the bottom of this heart, I don’t think I was quite ready to be … discovered let alone discover someone and give them my all.

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I am now…. BUT not ready to discover just anybody. He must be my soulmate and best friend, my forever one, the man who loves me when I am no longer youthful looking but still blessed with the same kind heart and sense of humour ( perhaps with less wits but still witty) …because I know that I am capable of; and want that soul quenching, inner beauty loving…forever happiness.

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If you asked me what I wanted my darling a thousand times over it would be the same thing
I want a life filled with adventure, never letting the mundane and boring become a part of who we are,
My love, I want to explore the earth: in its entirety,  every last crevice of you, the earth, the oceans and each little thing that the moon shines upon and my love, I want to explore this with you …

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Darling if you had to ask me what would make my heart happy and what would make my soul come alive I would tell you this;Take my heart and hold it in your hand as though it was the thing that keeps you alive,
Guard it and guide it,
Treat it with the utmost and gentlest care, but never allow it to grow tired and still
As my heart sweet darling needs to be touched and whispered to: so that your heart too,beats with the fire of a thousand African sunsets.

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My love if you want to know the secret to hearing my laughter erupting from the depths of my very being just know the answer lies in allowing me to be me,
for my love, my beauty lies not in the colour of my eyes nor the shape of my lips but rather in the way I live;
to feel free and alive;
And laughter, my love, is the way my heart sings, it allows you to pen lyrics to the sweetest melody your ears have yet to hear.

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My darling if you want to know how to make your arms my safe haven then simply do this
Treat me my sweet sweet darling as though I were the most special and incredible gift;
hold me in your arms, unwrap each layer that encases my body, heart and soul but do this with care my darling as the rarest gifts need to be opened slowly and patiently in order to truly appreciate what lies inside the gilded paper,

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My love, the answers to most of the questions your mind yearns to know are simple:
For darling  they are the very questions you have had the answer to, since the beginning of your mortal time.

True Story Of A Dog Who Takes A Bullet For Her Family (Sob) & Jo-Jo’s Little Big Vent On Adopting A Canine Pal (For Life) 

Literally sobbing Watching this video “Myra” my girl what a beautiful story… you are a doggy hero my girl. Click on the link below before going any further. 

The true story of a dog who took a bullet to save her family – watch here with tissues 

The love a dog gives you is the most beautiful thing in the world. 

Please share this as the @CapeofGoodHopeSPCA relies on any and all of our donations for vets bills in Myra’s case and for food and jerseys, medicine etc for all other pooches. 

Completely unconditional and they will protect us from anything no matter the danger to themselves 

If only humans could adopt even the tiniest amount of these characteristics. 

On another note and as I am so perfectly imperfect I still need to get this out. 

When I talk to people who “want a dog” “want to adopt a dog” etc but say they “don’t have space” or “are away often” “only home for a hour a day” …. so they think it’s unfair on the dog … it’s not those are your excuses. 


Firstly there are breeds that need not even a walk a day and are apartment dogs ( a huge bullmastiff is even one of those ), hello? When you travel? Dog sitters, kennels, family …. that’s a really shoddy excuse. And lastly if you know and love dogs so much you want one. Believe me fibe minutes of love, a five minute walk or even just seeing you come home will be enough and by far better than the cages they are designated to waiting for – and apologies again from the imperfect girl – so selfish, you  get off your bum go find the dog that you know you couls love and give that pooch it’s forever home out of a shelter. 

Look at those eyes on the image below …. a Labrador never has sad eyes. This pup is broken and broken hearted and YOU have the chance to make her eyes smile. What a blessing and privilege. 


And I promise, a dog coming into your life will bring more HAPPINESS to your eyes than theirs. 

#NoGreaterLove #AdoptDontShop