Fathers Day Dread
9 weeks, 1 day ago you left us for your eternal life in Heaven.
My Daddy I am only now realizing you are gone from this place forever.
Shock.Drowning. Overwhelmed. Scared.
People tell me to be strong. You were my strength.
People tell me it gets better. Everyday & night brings a physical ache worse than the one before.
I dream about you, I wait for you to visit, I see a man who looks like you I call out ‘dad’… I cry.
I miss you.
I miss your grumpy.
I miss our mischievous humour.
I miss your endlessly forgiving love.
I miss you & mom together.
I miss our forced runs.
I miss my king, my legend, my mentor, my daddy.
I miss a completed family where you were the rock.
My pops, my first & last star at night.
I love you & miss you.
Until we meet in the most beautiful place again.
I yearn for you infinity ♾ and a day.
I am ‘broken down & tired’ & I know I will ‘rise up’ until then, I will grieve a man who I fell in love with at first sight.