I Was So Lucky

On nights when my heart is sore oh so sore, and the memories of you are so vivid – I thank God that I still have, and always will be able to hold onto those.

I so often lose my breath when I think of you, my first love, not being alive on earth – but Daddy I know you are so happy and in a much better place, looking down on us and guiding us, forever. Always my 911.

Pops, I was lucky 🍀 for 37 years to have you. Most don’t get that chance or a hero daddy like you.


My first love, though oh to dance with my father again.

Losing A Good Good Daddy. The Grief Is Too Real.. Everyday

I still need to write your whole story… the story of a legend in every walk of life. Most of all the story of my Pops.My Daddy.My Protector.My First Love.

It will happen, I’m just a bit scared to start as I know the tears won’t stop. For now this is just a short excerpt of a day missing you so very much.

This is the price you pay for having a great father. You get the wonder, the joy, the tender moments – and you get the tears at the end, too.

Today you popped up on Facebook.

Pops I just wish so often you could pop up in this crazy world.
Will the grief ever end no matter how strong we try to be and how happy we know you are.

Will thinking I see you somewhere and realise I haven’t with a drop of my heart ever become a reality that you are gone forever.

Today was a day.

Tears poured.

Yet I always make myself remember YOU my dear daddy were and looking down from Heaven still are, a good good father.

I adore and miss you with an aching heart.

I love you with an infinity which we will spend together. Until then I crave you always.

Your Becky

Oh I Know There Going To Be Better Days … A Prayer For 2021

‘Oh I know there are going to be better days. ‘

A magic switch isn’t going to suddenly reset this chaotic world tonight at 12pm.

So no New Years Resolutions from me, just a fond farewell to a painful 2020 – the saddest year ever for myself and so many, BUT with a sign of silver lining appearing lately.

So instead of wishing you all the best for 2021.

All I do is pray for your health.
That you are loved completely.
That you appreciate all you have and give where you can.
That you get to spend more time with loved ones.
That this crazy pandemic ends and we return to some kind of normality.
That you learn to be gentle and patient and slow to anger.
I pray that you will be able to hug and kiss those you treasure before the end of 2021.

Have a wonderful NYE

Love Always JoJo

Daddy, Rest In The Father’s Arms Now: Forever our hero. We salute you

This evening from our folks room the sunset was the most amazing we have ever seen it.

It was a sign from our grand pops/husband/dad, our legend, our in case of emergency.

He knew he had to show us that he was happy and smiling.

Heaven truly put on a majestic display to welcome a new angel, our now guardian angel.

The shock slowly wears off at times and we are left shattered with very sore hearts.

Paul Campbell Robertson Bayvel, ‘Doll’ to mom, Daddy to us, Pops to his grandkids, papa bear to his nearest and springbok rugby legend to others.

We bid you farewell. We miss you with everything. Our hearts are shattered.

We love you infinity and a day.

Rest in the arms of our Heavenly Father.

Forever our hero. We salute you

Another Cancer Rodeo For Our Family, This Time With Our Dad, Paul Bayvel. Believing In A Miracle At The Significant Time Of Easter – On That Old Rugged Cross.

Tears stream, written in most part by the third heart in my life, my oldest sister Bronwyn Darné

@365wholesomedays 🙏🏼➕ this is possibly the first Easter we won’t spend with our dad. This part beautifully penned by @bronni_bee ”It has been a particularly hard day this year. Our family is apart because of the lockdown, and our dad, our pops, the king of our tribe, is in hospital and we are not able to visit. He was diagnosed earlier this year with stage 4 lung cancer (having spread to his spine). The prognosis is not good But we are standing on the Word and praying for a miracle. The significance of this day has overwhelmed me but simultaneously given me peace. For when we meet the deepest of our broken moments we know we are redeemed, and we will have peace and tender mercy.”

Bronni I love you. Every word is so true. What a time for a miracle at that ’old rugged cross’ – one of our pops favourite songs.

Jesus died for this reason so that all illness is gone, all pain and suffering He took.

Believing in His love and mercy for this miracle at this profound time; Easter is not lost on us.

We know our God is a Good Good Father one of miracles and wander. Even with our hearts laying broken on the floor.
Prayers and Faith are still holding us up, enabling us to be strong enough to believe in that promise made at Calvary 2020 years ago.

And of course to put back together the pieces of these shattered hearts so we can be warriors, fighting for a man we absolutely adore. Blessed more than words that we are so close a strong, Faith filled family able to fight the fight even after Debs 32 year battle.

Heavenly Daddy hold our father in your arms as he is alone, let him know you more and more.

Fill our hearts with your love & peace. Especially mom as he is her forever love.

Old things have ceased, at the cross, at the cross…..at that old rugged Cross.

Love Always

Jo-Jo
Becky