Make A Wish … Let 2020 Be The Year of Plenty Plenty x

To all you amazing people 💕 before I forget to write 😘😛
As we enter 2020, may you have no regrets leaving the old – but rather fondly treasure memories of events and people held so dear, understand that life is full of lessons, not mistakes and hey, you made it this far, something amazing must be waiting for you…..

I hope you get oh so excited facing the new, as 2020 brings with it the chance to start over, as well as the ability to continue to love and cherish those near & dear.

May 2020 be a year of helping and loving friends and strangers alike, a year of love, laughter and enjoying this beautiful life to the fullest.

Wishing you all everything you have hoped for, dreamed of or believed in will come to pass in this, a New Year – and perhaps a little more than that … you all deserve it….. from my heart to all of yours Happy New Year …. make a wish. Let God hear it …💋❤️💫🍭

Love  Always & a Day Jojo

Leroy Brown – The Best Damn Dog In The Whole ‘World ever’ 29.09.2011 to 5.09.2019

Video tribute to come as Leroy was my moms first love and her his, this is just a really small tribute to the Bullmastiff who served His Dog’s Purpose with me. I am heartbroken, I cannot breathe, I am lost but I was loved.

Leroy Brown – the best damn dog in the whole ‘world ever’
29.09.2011 to 5.09.2019
The magnificent sun set last night, just after you crossed the rainbow bridge my best buddy.
No more pain or suffering. You are running in fields healthy & happy.
The sun rose this morning, on the most magnificent day, a sign from you smiling down from up above.
You Leroy Browning our big, gentle, giant who became my best friend, confidant, protector & companion at my side always; served your Dogs Purpose.
You only loved & gave us beautiful memories to treasure.
We are broken hearted.
Boy Boy I can hardly breathe.
Tears do not stop falling.
Half of my heart has lost its biggest whole – you.
I love you always, forever a day and until we meet again.
Thank you for giving me your infinity, you made me so so happy….
I know time heals but for now,
I am lost without you.




– being jojo I only write this I do not have this type of strength and courage.


If you know me you will know that I have an angel and hero sister Debs Bayvel , who beat Cancer time and again over 39 years, with Faith and as is required with this dreaded disease, plenty of expensive yet vital medical treatment. I thank God and my amazing dad that we were always able to afford any and all treatments Debs needed.

Hannelie Swart (a close friend of Yolandi Engelbrecht who in turn is one of Debs best friends and a consistent, loving rock in Debs life) is losing her battle to Cancer because she CANNOT afford the treatment that CAN save her….

Tears of despair roll down my cheeks as this lady who has such strength, faith and dignity may die due to a lack of money and a medical aid which is denying her life – money I know even bit by bit we can raise. However as is the case with Cancer, a ticking time bomb, her disease is spreading so quickly and these rapidly multiplying cells are attacking and invading every inch of her now tiny and frail body.

Can you help me spread this story faster than those cells can multiply … I know you can.

TIME is of the ESSENCE and so I am writing this and appealing to the hearts of each and every person myself, my family, my friends and strangers know. I can only hope I have surrounded myself with the kind of people who will donate whatever amount they can afford, to save the life of someone so utterly kind and special.

Hannelie Swarts story – her strength and words are her very own I have only penned her story.

In 2014 at 53 years of age Hannelie received those dire words, heard too often these days, while sitting all alone in her doctors consulting room, “You have Melanoma cancer and the diagnosis is terminal”. Shocked, terrified and reeling at this death sentence imposed so unexpectedly, just wanting to escape, Hannelie sat in her car and called her best friend … both sobbed uncontrollably.

A life cut short so quickly… What goes through your mind?

As you sit frozen, this disease does not stop and allow you your sorrows, it continues to kill you as quickly as it can, wrenching the life out of you with no compassion or conviction.

What Hannalie has been diagnosed with is an exceedingly rare and incredibly aggressive form of Cancer known as ‘Malignant Melanoma Cancer” – but what is in a title if it is merely words that explain a deadly cancer with a high recurrence rate and until very recently no successful treatments made available. In Hannalie’s case we cannot say she could have and should have avoided the sun as her melanoma is not on her exposed body. Her cancer presented itself as vaginal primary malignant melanoma accounting for 0.3 – 0.8% of all malignant melanomas.
Sadly making her prognosis even worse….
Yet today and as you will read later on, Hannelie says she reads the below quote and is motivated….how many of us in a desperate state and facing death could find one ounce of motivation for anything and yet, she does…

“Cancer is not a death sentence, but rather a life sentence. It pushes one to live” – Marcia Smith.

Friends are your hearts not aching a little already to help this lady?

Deciding to fight this disease WHICH CAN BE BEATEN, as the strong yet gentle lady she is, Hannalie went to a gynaecologist oncologist Professor Snyman, who explained that she would on the 8th September 2014, have an operation which would involve a radical hysterectomy, vaginectomy and pelvic lymphadenectomy. Unknown terms racing through her mind, alone and losing the parts of her which made her feel like the lady she is, Hannelie was absolutely terrified but with no option she had the operation.

Although she experienced immense pain after this operation Hannelie recovered and was back at work within 8 weeks. In her words “I was blessed to have wonderful friends and family to support me all the way through the operation and afterwards. I knew that my life was in God’s hand and I was never alone.”

Again tears stream and my heart is broken. How does someone remain so positive and appreciative when going through the deepest and darkest valleys?

And in 2014 life continued for Hannelie with no chemotherapy or radiation required (Thank you Lord as this was a miracle) well I guess I have to say as I have witnessed it for 30 years, life continued as a “Cancer Survivor” with regular scans and check-ups.

And then….

After a year of “normal scan results” at the end of 2015 Hannelie had to undergo surgery for an incisional hernia caused from her previous abdominal operation. I can never fathom why after beating this disease the victor will still need to battle through operations and problems which arise from the battle…. SADLY during this operation the surgeon discovered new and more Melanoma Tumours.

Knowing how we have always felt with Debs and watching her hear these words countless times “ a recurrence, metastasised, stage 2, terminal” I can only imagine that Hannelie felt the same – those words you never thought you would hear again will shatter and destroy… freeze you, shock you, numb you and finally bring you to your knees sobbing and desperate. With one place to look and that is upwards to Heaven and then as I have witnessed so very often, somewhere from deep inside these incredible survivors will find the strength to fight again.

And so entering the ring again, Hannelie went back to her gynaecologist and was given the heart wrenching news that she would need to decide on having another major operation involving a pelvic exenteration (a radical surgery that removes all pelvic organs – urinary bladder, urethra, rectum and anus). Realising on that day that her life was about to change forever Hannalie researched and prayed. She even contacted CANSA knowing that if or at this stage when, the time came she would need them to face death with dignity. They were amazing and even introduced Hannelie to a lady who had had the very same operation… later Hannelie in her amazing way would help them by raising funds for CANSA …

And now we need to raise funds for Hannelie..

Deciding that no matter what they took from her she wanted to live in order to spend more time with her precious friends and family, Hannelie – with an enormous amount of faith – underwent a seven hour operation on the 12th May 2016 even knowing that she would now have a permanent colostomy and urostomy – in non-medical terms these are known as “Stomas” which are surgically created openings on the abdomen to collect the waste products (urine and faeces) which our bodies would usually get rid of naturally.

Again tears stream how much can one body take, how much of you can YOU lose and still LIVE afterwards…?

In hospital still weak and tired Hannelie named this her ‘Mount Everest’ challenge. In her own words everyday felt like she had achieved something major even if it was just her saltwater bath routine. “I asked God to give me enough energy just for the day. He says in his word, “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matt 6:34). His grace is new every day. Although it was difficult to cope, God sent the right people my way. Help and support were always close. “

The beautiful strength of our Hannelie our angel continued to shine through. Can we continue to show Hannelie this type of love and support?

After fifteen days Hannalie was discharged from hospital and desperate to get home just to be with her precious dog, a love we can all understand as even though she was now perhaps disfigured and ‘damaged’ her pal would give her the unconditional love she so deserved.

Hannelie did discover that her Mount Everest climb was just beginning as every day after she left the hospital, would bring with it new challenges. She had to get used to the stoma pouches, she was unable to eat solid foods, and she couldn’t sleep and found it incredibly difficult to walk. Her left leg was very swollen to the extent that she was unable to even lift it – that alone took six months to return to normal.

Experiencing good and bad days, Hannelie had to learn to change the stoma pouches every day where some days even if urine would leak from the bag it would leave her helpless and in tears. Hannalie had amazing help from her stoma therapist and says if it wasn’t for these angels in her life she wouldn’t have made it.

I think she is the angel….

As Hannelie says though… as a lady as a woman as a human being…

“My body will never look or feel the same. After my operation I used to cry when I looked at my body. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror. I have cried when I have to clean the stomas and replace the pouches. It gets better with time but it is still difficult some days.”

And we think a Telkom line going down is a MAJOR Difficulty…..

As a result of the operation Hannelie was booked off from work for 3 months and then discovered she was afraid to go back to work and couldn’t quite get her head around the difficulties it would bring. As a personal assistant she would need to attend meetings and take minutes and was so scared that she wold not be able to perform all her duties as she did before. She now had a colostomy which means no sphincter muscle around the stoma, so she has no control over her bowel or flatulence. The embarrassment of sitting in a room full of people who would hear these intimate noises terrified her.

And yet

Being the strong and dedicated lady she is, she proudly survived the 1st day, then the 1st month and life at work got better with time until it was too sore to sit for long periods of time and she had to start working half days.

And then, again Tragedy struck… In the form of stage 4 cancer

In August of 2016 inoperable multiple lung metastases and nodules were found in the right upper lobe anterior, right mid lobe and posterior right upper lobe of her lungs. Although still small (measuring only 3 x 3 mm and 5 x 5 mm). Hannelie was devastated, and her cancer now classified in the end stages of this dreadful disease as Stage 4.

Chemotherapy was decided on as everyone rallied around and wanted this kind and amazing lady to survive. The chemo (Dacarbazine) cost R10,000-00 per treatment, her medical aid sent their approval and the course started over September and October 2016.

Dacarbazine is the standard 1st line treatment for patients with malignant metastatic melanoma.
For decades, chemotherapy with Dacarbazine has served as the standard in patients with inoperable metastatic melanoma, despite the fact that the survival rate as a result of treatment from this drug has never been shown to work in clinical trials. Pure poison running through your system, damaging everything in its path, both the healthy and unhealthy parts, for nothing….

Although she knew this treatment may not save her life as its response rate is so limited, Hannelie had to try it before her medical aid would approve immunotherapywhich has a far better response rate but is very expensive.

And then…

In October of 2016 Hannelie went for a CT scan post these chemotherapy sessions only to hear more disappointing news. Some of the lung metastases had increased in size and multiple new tumours were now visible. The cancer had also spread to her liver. The chemotherapy had not worked at all…

Hannelies’s oncologist suggested starting with immunotherapy immediately but application for this therapy takes time as it has to be referred to the SA Oncology Consortium and with Cancer time is never on one’s side and so Hannelies friends and family started praying that her treatment would be approved rapidly. And of course this treatment is also very expensive.

Yet what is the value one can place on a life?

Thankfully in November, Bankmed approved 4 sessions of immunotherapy ( for more on this treatment please see link). The cost is exorbitant at R288,359-36 per treatment. And as Hannelie says, she was incredibly blessed with no side effects (just ) a skin rash, headaches and fatigue. Her hair didn’t fall out and she didn’t experience any nausea.

Grateful for these things what a true heroine? Not many of us could even copy daily with these side effects….

Hannelie’s last treatment, with the four spaced out every twenty one days, was completed in February 2017.

Still terrified and wracked with a feeling of helplessness and excepting bad news, Hannelie went for a CT scan on the 25th February 2017.

However God being the amazing Father He is shone his light on Hannelie and the scan showed a significant reduction in the size and number of her lung tumours. The liver nodules were still present but considerably smaller. Two of the three previously noted had slightly decreased in size. And finally the best news, no new metastatic lesions were seen. Having seen these amazing results, a miracle on a black and white film, her oncologist immediately suggested an application be requested from Bankmed for four more sessions.

The sky had cleared, a rainbow appeared and hope was again discovered.

You see, Immunotherapy will give you a 65.4% chance of survival however the cost is just to “high” for these medical aids which are more intent on making money than saving lives… they requested a liver test and on receiving the results took this ladies life, looked at the costs on paper and decided she was not going to go for more therapy….

You see money is far more important than life, I guess? What a sad day and age we live in when a boardroom of professionals can have no empathy.

Desperate Hannelie and her oncologist applied for just two sessions and again after another scan and despite such positive results, the desperate please for life was declined by strangers who I guess sleep at night knowing their bank accounts are full but to me, they must have pretty empty hearts…

So today we are here,

Hannelie was disappointed with the decision as not getting any more treatment meant as she sits today she IS DYING and she cannot do a thing about it, this precious, special and brave lady.

I am stepping in as even though Hannelie says “I have to trust on the Lord and believe that everything will work out for the good. “ I would hope that’s someone would do the same for me and for those I know and love….

Please I make a plea to your hearts help… if you are ever in this situation I will do my utmost to make sure you get the care you deserve.

Let us set a goal to raise the money for two more treatments…

It is a lot at R 576 720 but at a hundred rand ( what you spend on a coffee, cocktails or posting selfies on IG) from five thousand people, the number of “friends” so many of us have on Facebook alone, means WE CAN DO IT especially if we spread this story everywhere and in every way we can…

Please let your heart reach out to this lady lets show Bankmed we can do it and perhaps they will then pay for the rest.

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These last few lines below are from our Hannelie… feel her heart as she reaches out to yours…

What I have learned from cancer:

· That I am “more than a conqueror” in this world through Him who loves me– Romans 8:37. To be “more than a conqueror” means I will not only achieve victory, but I am overwhelmingly victorious.

· That I can face the trials of life with the certainty that I am never alone. I have a mighty Father who fights for me.

· I can approach the darkest valleys with confidence, knowing that nothing can happen to me that is not permitted by our loving Father for my good (Romans 8:28)

· That I was braver than I believed, stronger than I seemed and smarter than I thought.

· Life is short. Live it. I have contacted Cansa and have volunteered to help with projects.

· Do whatever you can while you still can. I have started with Calligraphy classes in January and I will finish the course end of 2018. I am enjoying it to still learn new things.

· Every night I turn my worries over to God. He is going to be up all night anyway – Mary C Crowley.
Hannelie Swart

Cancer survivor

I know that God is in control and although this was a disappointment, my life is in God’s hands.

Fall A Little In Love with Love …. Not Only Somebody To Love, Everyday 

Just apt as we approach … Valentine’s Day.

Falling in love is divine. It’s boundless, bewildering, irrational, transcendent and impassioned. It awakens the soul to the best parts of our existence. Falling in love is not a restricted extravagance either. We can fall in love repeatedly, and in such a plethora of ways. We can wake up every day and decide to fall in love with each other, and with the life we have been given.

What if we took the time to fall in love with strangers? What if we made efforts to fall back in love with the people in our lives every chance we were given? What if we fell in love with places, smells, sites, sounds, faces, tastes, memories, experiences and everyday engagements of our emotions? There are so many hands you have never shaken, and names you’ve never learned. There are so many voices your ears wouldn’t recognize, and eyes you’ve never really looked into. 

There are so many stories that go unheard. There are so many tears that go unseen, and healing embraces that never get the chance to perform their magic. We are faced with opportunities each day to open our hearts to every aspect of life worth falling madly in love with.

I try to fall in love every day. I pick the middle seat on the plane, to get blessed with two new friends and twice as many stories. I shake hands. I ask questions. I befriend everyone from the lady at the supermarket, to the couple laughing at my typically frantic sprint onto the train. I want to reach out every chance I can, regardless of the chances I take of being rejected or mocked. I find my soul warmed by the special ways that people laugh, or the unique pigment in their eyes when they really look into mine. People captivate me. Places, foods, art, music and stories can sweep me off my feet, and into a state of romanticism I cannot explain. I find that through all of the articles I write, the most critical piece of advice that I can give to any person is to embrace all love. We feel alone in a world filled with so many people and experiences just waiting to steal our hearts. 

Disappointment and fear only gain the upper-hand when we start losing the ability to readily involve ourselves in love. That would be my most essential piece of advice, to go, my friend, and fall in love with this life.

1. Ask people the real questions. Ask about their passions, fears, hopes and dreams.

2. Introduce yourself. Be brave and vulnerable.

3. Listen to people. I mean really listen to them.

4. Help anyone you can, from strangers to your closest friends. Don’t turn away.

5. Get excited. Get excited about everything from your favorite TV show coming on to Lucky Charms being on sale at the grocery store. Rejoice in all of life’s little wins, and appreciate them for the ways they make life sweeter.

6. Visit old friends. Don’t let your friendships fade. Remember the reasons you are so thankful to have them in your life, and fight for them, like a lover would.

7. Travel to new places. Indulge yourself in the cultures. Experience everything the world has to offer, and don’t be fearful or close-minded to the opportunities set before you.

8. Put away your screens when you’re with people. If you want to spend time with someone, you should actually be there, physically and mentally.

9. Plan personal time with your friends and family.

10. Hug. Reach out your arms and wrap the people you love in them. Feel them. Embrace the connection that you have, and express that you’ll always be there to remind them of it.

11. Indulge your emotions in what you enjoy most. Scream like a crazy person at the basketball game, dance freely at the concert, and run like you never have to stop. Let go. Let yourself be charmed and delighted by your hobbies.

12. Show people your true colors.

13. Don’t try to hide who you are from anyone, and let others love you for the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, and the weak and the strong parts of who you are.

14. Express your opinions.

15. Involve your emotions in the priorities and matters of this world. You can’t fall in love with this life if you don’t care about the people in it.

16. Accept the opinions of others. Ask to hear about those opinions. Respect them. Learn from each other.

17. Wear your heart on your sleeve regardless of how terrifying it can feel to open up.

18. Appreciate the innocence of the world. Play with children and animals as readily as you can.

19. Learn from the beautiful display they have of unprecedented happiness. Fall in love with that, because it’s incredible.

20. Look into the eyes of the people you see and speak with. Show them that you are really there.

21. Take chances. Be spontaneous. Embrace the unexpected nature of love.

22. Smile. Even if some don’t smile back, others will, and you may find that the smiles shooting back at you steal your heart away.

23. Love your body. Treat it kindly and take care of it. Appreciate it for the unique vessel it is for your soul. Part of continually falling in love is being able to love yourself in your own skin.

24. Sit next to someone instead of alone. Try not to isolate yourself.

25. Be respectful, and expect it from others. Respect is a building block of mutual love.

26. Say “I love you.” Say “Thank you.” Say “I’m proud of you.”

27. Never trade opportunities for real conversation with the people who you love.

28. Exercise integrity with others. The truth is always worth falling for.

29. Say yes.

30. Give people the benefit of the doubt, even if others have let you down. Too often we avoid love because of wrongs committed by people in our pasts. Don’t let heartbreak control your ability to see the best in human beings.

31. Play games. Play outside. Have fun and let it consume you.

32. Share meals with friends and family, and also with people capable of becoming your friends and family.

33. Laugh uncontrollably whenever you want to. Laugh as much as possible. It heals the soul and unites you with others in remarkable ways.

34. Sing like a rock star. Let music move you.

35. Surround yourself with people who encourage you and bring out the best in you. The light you will inspire in each other is irreplaceable.

36. Try new foods. Try new wines. Try new flavors of ice cream. Food is a great lover.

37. Go on adventures. Anything from hiking a mountain to raiding the thrift store in the next town over can create the most amazing of discoveries.

38. Feel for others. Emphasize and have compassion. Let yourself be moved by them.

39. Dance uncontrollably. Whether you look like a superstar, or a flailing idiot like myself, let music take control of your body.

40. While you’re at it, grab a partner. We should all dance together.

41. Learn everything you can. Absorb information like a sponge. Fall in love with knowledge. Fall in love with stories. Fall in love with history. Fall in love with everything your brain is just waiting to know.

42. Follow your dreams. Go for the job you know will awaken the best parts of who you are.

43. Your passion is a lifelong romance you will always need to strive for. It can be the kind of lover that brings you joy and fulfillment with every passing day.

44. Accept yourself. Be proud. Be confident. Be strong.

45. You can fall in love with yourself every day too. You can look in the mirror and know that in your heart you are radiating love onto this world. You can carry with you the ability to achieve extraordinary greatness. You just have to be open to it, because the choice is yours.

So go, my friend, and fall in love with this life.

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